I was in bed in Wilkes and my cell rings. I was just getting up to get ready for work, and when I read the caller ID, I almost dropped the phone. Wade called me. I answered, but was in shock. I did not know why. And I still don't.
He is going to Western now, and just wanted to know if I was still in Asheville. I wanted to hang out. So I called him when I got back to Asheville. And then last night we hung out.
I was nervous and sacred. I did not know what to expect. He was so cruel to me, but I have forgiven him, and thought that maybe he had changed. And to my disappointment he had not.
He was still the same. Still doing the same shit that I could not stand 3 years ago. It was a superficial evening. I did not feel any connection to him, I did not feel that he trusts me anymore than I can trust him. Sure he divulged personal details from his life in the last 3 years, but I felt he did it to check my response, not to share with me or mend broken ties. It was just because he was near Asheville.
I will never be close to him again, and I am surprising ok with that. There was a time in my life when I thought that we would be friends forever, and now, he is just some guy I went to high school with. No big deal. I like that I can talk to him and it not hurt. But the trust is gone, and I don't think that I will ever let it sneak back into my life.
He will forever be superficial friend, an old memory.
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