Glorious Rays of Sunshine!

I did it!  I just got back my last paper for developmental and I got a B!  I never thought that I would be so happy over a B.  But then again I have never been so horrible in a class before.  So I am doing better with this whole class, and knowing that I am going to be fine in it and that December 20th is just around the corner.

On a happier note, I am going to try and get a job at New River in Wilkes for my 8 month stint at home.  It will be a hell of a lot better than retail, and somewhat connected to my intended life.  I will be a case worker, which could be extremely emotionally draining, but that will be a good thing too.  I need to toughen my skin and know that I can handle all of this.  And I am excited about my future, the one that I am working to get to.  It is a nice feeling to know that I am in control of my life.  

I Want This.

I finally have a day off tomorrow.  Between school and work, I have not had a free day in the last two weeks.  

But Thursday was interesting.  This family came into to Lane Bryant, it was a mother, father and their three daughters.  And the mom was finding an outfit for some reunion type thing.  And I was bringing her another pair of pants and I caught the end of her conversation with her husband.

"Babe, it is not the clothes that make you, but you make the clothes.  You are going to be beautiful no matter what you wear."  He was looking at his wife with such love and devotion.  It made me want to cry.  The woman obviously did not find herself attractive, and her husband thought that she was the most beautiful woman in the world.  I want that.  

Work Fun, Really?

I have worked all weekend, and I still have to work tomorrow.  But I have some fun stories.

First of all I was called skinny, that was a first.  Stephenie, my manger, made try on clothes like all day yesterday, and I come out of the dressing room in a dress and she tells me how skinny I am.  Is it sad that I love working there because I am one of the smallest people on payroll and normally one of the smallest in the store.  I love these job!

And then I was checking out this lady and they have to give their phone numbers.  It was a 336 area code which encompasses a rather large area, but then 667 came out of her mouth.

"Are you from Wilkesboro?"

"Yes, I am.  How did you know that?"

"The number.  I would even venture to guess the country club."

"Yes that is right.  Are you from there?"

"Born and raised."

"Oh, I am so sorry."  I know that Wilkesboro is small, but 'I am so sorry'?  Really!?!?!?!  I might have hated it for a time, but I am proud that I am from there.  How can she assume that I hate it?  I mean what the hell?  She is not even from there, she chooses to live there.  But she is moving back to Virgina soon.  Crazy lady!

Then I went to go get Wendy's after work and then to Aly's.  The guy at the at the drive thru comments on my 'trust no one' sticker, which I of course had to explain was X-Files.  Which then proceeded in a conversation about the wonder of the show that included the entire staff.  One nerdy kid came running from the back to ask me about the movie and if I thought it was good.  I told him it was ok, I could not break his heart and tell him how awful it was.  

A Choice to Make

I have applied at Lane Bryant and Eddie Bauer for a job, and I got both of them.  So now, I am not sure what to do.  There would not be a choice to be made, but EB is offering me 8 while LB is only offering me 7.15.  I know that I will enjoy working at LB more, but that is a huge difference in pay.  I would be working weekends for both, the only rub in the money.

What am going to do?  I would be working with fashion in both, and they are right next to each other in the mall, it is just I know that I would feel more comfortable at LB.  But 85 cents is such a huge difference.  In some ways I feel that I debating selling my soul over 85 cents.  I am going to sleep on it and talk to mom about it.  Why can't LB offer me more?  Then this would not be an issue.