Snapshots

Every now and then there are these moments in life that are perfect.  And it is always the small things, not the big things that leave you with a true feeling of happiness, not just contentment but the true feeling of life and being glad to be living it.  It is these moments that my mind takes a picture, moments that will be will be what flashes before me when I die.  I have not had one of these snapshot moments for a while, but I did today.

I had just gotten off ichat with Kristen and I was taking Gabby out.  A cool breeze hit me when I got out the door, and the night felt perfect, like magic.  With everything that has happened in last few months and my life has been busy and constantly changing.  I am optimistic about my future, about where I am going to go and end up.  I am happy right now.  I still have truly wonderful friends, and my art is going better than ever.  It is hard to be here, to still be in school where there are constant reminders of what life was like, of days on the quad, life in founders, and the pain of my show.  

It is weird how my life has turned out.  I was supposed to go to an art school and then grad school in studio art.  And somehow I ended up at a liberal arts college that shaped me into a better person, and gave me wonderful memories and friends.  And now I am going to grad school for art therapy, something that my community college art teacher wanted me to do.  She seemed to think that I was made for it.

I might feel differently next week, or tomorrow, but for right now I like my life.  I like the routine of it.  

Oh, and I am definitely graduating on Dec. 20, 2008.  With a BFA in studio art and a minor in psychology.  I am graduating!!!!!!

Graduation is in sight

So I am now taking four, yes, four psych classes.  All of them reading intensive and a few with some major writing.  But, I can do this.  I will have all nights free, and work on the weekends.  

That is if I get hired.

I ran all over campus today to get everything taken care of.  I went to class, declared my minor, sent an e-mail to Dr. Brown to get into research Methods 2, then realized this was the last drop/add day, so waited outside his office until he showed up and then got signed in.  But on the upside, there is not a book for RM2.  

I have some reading to do and then an interview to get to and then to the studio to do work for tomorrow and then class again.  So all I have to do now is get through all of these classes and in December I get to walk across a stage and get a VERY expensive piece of paper.  But I will graduate, and I will be fine.  

Super Parents to the Rescue

I talked to my parents today about having to drop my minor.  Mom listened and said that if that is what I need to do, then do it.  And then she called back.  She had talked to Dad and he did not hesitate to tell me that I was being ridiculous and that my education will always come first.

I knew that was true before, but the lack of an income has left its toil on my family.  I knew that I needed a job, that I need to be able to supply for myself to some degree, but Dad told me that I would never get this chance again.  Sure, I will now only be working weekends, and going home will not be happening, and I will be stressed to the max taking 16 hours and working 15-20 hrs a week, but I can do it.  I can still get my minor, and graduate in December and pay all my bills, except my rent, and live.  My life my not be include much buying, but since my bad influence spending friend is gone, this might be easier than I think.

Without my parents none of this would be possible, what can I say, I love them.

Bullshit Liberal arts!!!

I am having to drop my actually minor to take another quantitative class.  I was told that Stat 185 would fulfill my math and quantitative requirement, Tynes was wrong.  So I am having to drop the last class that would fulfill my minor, and take a math related course so that I can work at least two afternoons during the week and two days of the weekend.  I hate this.

I hate that I have to do the bullshit.  I don't need another fucking math requirement, I need to know how to deal with people, how to do what will one day be my job.  But I will still have the shit I need for grad school, just not my minor.  I am going to be stressed to max once I start working.  I have 9 am classes everyday, and it does not seem to matter what time I go to sleep, I am still tired at those classes.  But in 4 months it will be over.  I am counting down the days to 9 months of retail and no rent.

120 days to go until I walk.

Oh and I have an interview at Lane Bryant on Monday and I had one at Eddie Bauer today.  I want the LB one, but I just need a job, a way to make money and give some reprieve to my parents.