Home at Last.

I have spent the last week at Aly's, saving on gas and therefor time and money.  But the gas crisis seems to finally be coming to an end.  Now I am at home, and feeling the stress of moving at the end of December.  

I got home to a nice-renew-lease letter and it made me cringe.  I hate packing, I hate moving.  I hate when I have to put my entire life in a box.  And the hatred is born from the fact that my life does not fit into a box, or even a single room.  I am moving home, which I am fine with, and I get one room.  One room that is already full of furniture.  All of my stuff is going into the barn.  

UGH!

I know that mom would let me put my stuff in my room, but then I would just have to move it all again when I go to grad school, so that would not be worth it.  It would not be worth all the moving.  

So I will be having a packing party soon.  I know that the only way to make all of my tension decrease is to start now.  I am moving my studio first since my only, and last, studio class is printmaking, which I have to do on campus.

So my boxes are going to be used a lot in the next few months.  I am going to be weeding things out and downsizing to a more manageable life.

"I am an Angel of the Lord"

My wonderful show started back up last week and it has been amazing so far.  But I have to say that one of the best parts is that I have a date every Thursday with Kristen.  We watch the episode of Supernatural while chatting online and then we call and talk about it after.  It has been pretty amazing thus far and it helps to keep something of our old relationship.  I miss having her on my couch watching some nerdy TV show.  Hell, I miss knowing that she is somewhere on campus or in the same state as me.  Supernatural has become a balm to my aches of missing her.

So I need some help.  I know absolutely nothing about the bible, and well, Supernatural has taken a biblical turn.  Does anyone know anything about Revelations?  If this had to do with the run of the mill myths and lore as usual than I would be fine, but no, now they want to branch out and throw in some good southern-bible-thumping-apocalypse-prophecy stuff and I am found to be at a loss.  I hope that I am going to enjoy this new turn of events.  Last week I had my doubts, but this week redeemed itself a little.  

So anyone know anything about the end of world?  

For those who did not know...

It is my birthday.  Happy birthday to me.

My gay man came this weekend.  It was nice to get to see him since it has been a while.  I miss him.  But due to the impromtu highschool resuinon feel of this weekend it made me reflect on my senior year and how much had changed and what has not.

I know that my life has changed, I went from being single to not; leaving the bitterness behind.  But I have maintained the important realtionships, the ones that have shaped me.  My homosexual lifemate has permentaly tied me to her, I know that no matter where I go that she will always be there for me.  And then there is Jeremy, the guy who I call when I am wanting and not worry about how often I call.

So this is one of the best birthday presents ever.  It is a Supernatural MUG!!  IT is AMAZING!  It was a wonderful surprise to get from Kristen.  Now I just need the third season to top off the wonder of turning 23.  I love that I get my present on Kristen birthday and she will probably get hers on mine since I still have not mailed it.  And I have a brilliant idea for a nice fun gift for her.  This idea will probably be used for Aly and Amanda.  I know that Aly's birthday was last month but the wait will be worth it, I promise!

Now I have to write this stupid developmental paper.  No more procrastination.  Not to mention I will be up all night doing it and then go to class at 9.  Yeah college life.  Why do I do this to myself.

Aly Saves the day

Life has been pretty average here.  I am currently residing with my wonderful homosexual life-mate to help me save money from the huge gas explosion.  It has actually been nice.  I kinda miss living with Aly.  Hopefully I am not bothering her too much.  But it has been nice to see someone everyday since my life recently has only involved school, work and sleep.  

I will be in the studio all day tomorrow when I am not in class since I used that time today to work on some papers.  So studio life it is for me tomorrow.  Wish me luck in the room of chemicals and nitric acid.  

Work Fun, Really?

I have worked all weekend, and I still have to work tomorrow.  But I have some fun stories.

First of all I was called skinny, that was a first.  Stephenie, my manger, made try on clothes like all day yesterday, and I come out of the dressing room in a dress and she tells me how skinny I am.  Is it sad that I love working there because I am one of the smallest people on payroll and normally one of the smallest in the store.  I love these job!

And then I was checking out this lady and they have to give their phone numbers.  It was a 336 area code which encompasses a rather large area, but then 667 came out of her mouth.

"Are you from Wilkesboro?"

"Yes, I am.  How did you know that?"

"The number.  I would even venture to guess the country club."

"Yes that is right.  Are you from there?"

"Born and raised."

"Oh, I am so sorry."  I know that Wilkesboro is small, but 'I am so sorry'?  Really!?!?!?!  I might have hated it for a time, but I am proud that I am from there.  How can she assume that I hate it?  I mean what the hell?  She is not even from there, she chooses to live there.  But she is moving back to Virgina soon.  Crazy lady!

Then I went to go get Wendy's after work and then to Aly's.  The guy at the at the drive thru comments on my 'trust no one' sticker, which I of course had to explain was X-Files.  Which then proceeded in a conversation about the wonder of the show that included the entire staff.  One nerdy kid came running from the back to ask me about the movie and if I thought it was good.  I told him it was ok, I could not break his heart and tell him how awful it was.  

Snapshots

Every now and then there are these moments in life that are perfect.  And it is always the small things, not the big things that leave you with a true feeling of happiness, not just contentment but the true feeling of life and being glad to be living it.  It is these moments that my mind takes a picture, moments that will be will be what flashes before me when I die.  I have not had one of these snapshot moments for a while, but I did today.

I had just gotten off ichat with Kristen and I was taking Gabby out.  A cool breeze hit me when I got out the door, and the night felt perfect, like magic.  With everything that has happened in last few months and my life has been busy and constantly changing.  I am optimistic about my future, about where I am going to go and end up.  I am happy right now.  I still have truly wonderful friends, and my art is going better than ever.  It is hard to be here, to still be in school where there are constant reminders of what life was like, of days on the quad, life in founders, and the pain of my show.  

It is weird how my life has turned out.  I was supposed to go to an art school and then grad school in studio art.  And somehow I ended up at a liberal arts college that shaped me into a better person, and gave me wonderful memories and friends.  And now I am going to grad school for art therapy, something that my community college art teacher wanted me to do.  She seemed to think that I was made for it.

I might feel differently next week, or tomorrow, but for right now I like my life.  I like the routine of it.  

Oh, and I am definitely graduating on Dec. 20, 2008.  With a BFA in studio art and a minor in psychology.  I am graduating!!!!!!

For the Girls of Founder's Hall

After four years of friendship with three incredible women, I found a picture of all four of us.  I am not sure how that happened, no foursome pictures, but that makes this one even more amazing.  I know that some of us girls have been having problems, missing the life that we once all shared, and now dealing with adult issues.  I hope that this picture makes ya'll as happy as it makes me.  It made me laugh for joy when I realized we were all in it, and cry at the thought of how much has changed since then.  I am pretty sure this is from my birthday last year, almost one year ago.

I miss you girls, I miss those cuddles on my couch, marking virgin daiquiris at midnight, devouring pixie sticks, crying and laughing over chick flicks, sharing in the childish innocence of Disney, but mostly I just miss what we were to each other.  I know that I still have three of the best friends in the world, but I miss the late nights and the laughter.  I just love ya'll so much.  My college life would have been bland without all of you.  

When I found this, I decided on a theme for my prints this semester.  I am doing close ups of the people that are, or were important to me, but from an art perspective it becomes about the negative and positive space and not the people.  It makes the intimacy of these picture more private.

Oh, and I took the Lane Bryant job.  My first day is Sunday, and I went with Trevor and bought my first work outfit.  The women that work there are fun and laid back, which is going to make this wonderful.  I am excited about all the wonderful clothes that I will be buying.  

A Choice to Make

I have applied at Lane Bryant and Eddie Bauer for a job, and I got both of them.  So now, I am not sure what to do.  There would not be a choice to be made, but EB is offering me 8 while LB is only offering me 7.15.  I know that I will enjoy working at LB more, but that is a huge difference in pay.  I would be working weekends for both, the only rub in the money.

What am going to do?  I would be working with fashion in both, and they are right next to each other in the mall, it is just I know that I would feel more comfortable at LB.  But 85 cents is such a huge difference.  In some ways I feel that I debating selling my soul over 85 cents.  I am going to sleep on it and talk to mom about it.  Why can't LB offer me more?  Then this would not be an issue.